Blogging has been a bit of a strange thing for me to get used to. I have been an avid at keeping a journal for most of my life, so when the time to blog came up, I didn't quite get it. It was somewhere in between writing in a journal and writing a letter - but the letter is going out to no one in particular.
Then I got laid off. "This is interesting!" I thought, "I'll blog about this."
How To Be a Housewife had the tag line
LAID OFF AND LOOKING FOR THE MEANING OF LIFE, A CAREER-WORKING-MOM TURNS HOUSEWIFE WHILE FIGURING OUT WHAT SHE WANTS TO BE WHEN SHE GROWS UP.
I only did about fifteen posts because it turns out being laid off is pretty boring. Wasn't like I was sitting around thinking deep thoughts. And I really hated being a housewife, getting back to work was a breath of fresh air. I wish I had continued blogging on it - I feel like I'm still trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up, or in ten years anyway (because ten years seemed the right amount of time to be able to get any schooling, training and experience for what I wanted to do "for real"), and it would be good to track it along as I go. Maybe I will get back to it.
Then I started this blog with Kate after we spent a lot of my layoff working on the memoir about our reunion (that we're still working on - what? it's only been eight years...). A blog seemed a perfect counterpart to continue a present-day dialog about the birthmother vs. adoptee experience, and I feel that that has gotten its footing and we're in a good rhythm with it now and it's something I look forward to doing each week.
While blogging here, I started writing about trying to transition to being carless - and that became it's own blog that I still try to keep up with (but it's been awhile).
So, for me, I am just getting into the feel of blogging about what I feel what might be interesting in general. What sticks out for me is that the blogs I most like reading are the other adult adoptee blogs and the blogs on open adoption. I just find it such a rich, wide, expansive experience and while everyone's experience is different, everyone's experience also resonates with me in some way. And, every time I feel like I'm "done" with being in reunion, I discover other aspects that tell me there's still a long way to go.
so what do you want to be when you grow up. hell, i am just entering into senior citizen's land and i wonder the same thing about me. yesterday i did this tomorrow i am going to do that. it's life and it is always changing. just when i think i have got a handle on things it changes. just pick up your left foot and put it in front of your right. one step at a time, one day at a time. you will figure it out, and then change your mind. love, uncle steve
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